Unbearable Agony: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Robert Ward
Robert Ward

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